Grateful

So many times I forget to think of everything good in my life.  While I’m busy focusing on what I’d like to change or how I wish the day had gone differently I lose sight of what really matters, and between you and me, I have been richly blessed.

Today was one of those days filled with moments far beneath stellar motherhood.  Nicholas felt warm when I woke up, but I assumed it was because I fell asleep nursing him and had covered us both up with blankets and comforter and I was wearing flannel pajamas.  I got the kids ready for school, quickly showered, fed the kids, packed backpacks, and out the door we went.  I was excited to have coffee with the girls, as my heart has been lonesome for my friends.

Nicholas seemed to be fussy during coffee, but I figured it was due to his lack of a good morning nap, but he still felt warm.  I ran an errand while waiting for Bethany to finish her morning at preschool and came home.  When I took Nicholas out of the car seat I decided to take his temperature.  It was 103 degrees, and immediately I felt like a horrible mother.  The day seemed to go downhill from there.

Nicholas was only comfortable while nursing or sleeping in my arms …
Lucas had a slight incident at school …
Bethany gave way to a tantrum …
I fell asleep while holding the baby …
Kids wanted to do the dishes but soaked their clothes and the floor …
Kids wanted to help make Daddy’s birthday cake, but Nicholas wanted to be held …
Kids had a bath and got water all over the bathroom floor …
I started cutting vegetables for dinner, but Nicholas wanted to be held …
Matt came home late from work …
Kids watched too much t.v …
Nicholas crawled off the edge of our bed resulting in a bloody nose …
Kids needed mom to comfort them to sleep …
I just finished the dishes from the dinner that never got made …
When I looked in the mirror a few hours ago, I looked as exhausted as I feel after being sick or caring for sick people for nearly six weeks …
My house is a disaster area because Nicholas wants to be held …

It is easier to focus on the low points of the day, but as I held Nicholas with a bloody nose, I had an overwhelming sense of gratitude come over me.  I have three precious children and a husband, and while the home may be a mess tonight, it is filled with love.

Tonight I am grateful because when my baby is sick I have the means to comfort him, my arms love being filled with his fevered body …
Lucas is learning from his mistakes the correct way to handle himself at school …
Bethany’s tantrums are teaching moments, and as her preschool teacher declared at this young age of four “Bethany loves the Lord!”
I fell asleep while holding the baby — pure peace …
The kids helped with the dishes …
I can bake the cake tomorrow …
I have a bathtub to clean the kids in …
Vegetables are cut for another meal this week …
Matt has a job to come home late from …
I got to hold all three kids while watching a movie …
Nicholas only had a bloody nose, God protected him from further injury and I have a great nurse friend who was willing to come over and set my mind at ease about the fall and Nicholas’ well being …
I got to rub the backs of my sweet kiddos and soothe them off to sleep, and that’s ok because this is just a season where they need to be reassured of my love for them and my desire to be with them …
There were great leftovers in the fridge so I didn’t have to cook, and I got the dishes done, albeit late in the evening …
I may be exhausted, but I have a bed to rest in and I’m about to head there now …
My house is a disaster area, but I haven’t become anxious about it.  There will always be messes, but the days of truly being needed and wanted by your children are few and I am glad to forgo the chores to be what they need …

Tonight I am exhausted, but truly grateful.

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  1. Lindsey, this is such a great reminder. I am so glad you have friends who have you over for coffee, come to visit you in your home, are anxious for your well being. I am grateful I am one of those friends! As soon as everyone gets well, you should come over for coffee! We really enjoy having the Prices in our lives. Love you, Mary Robin
    PS I have had to say that prayer of gratefulness so often, grateful my husband has a good job he loves to come home late from! hehe 😉

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